on transparency...

Here's a thought, why do people go all out of the way to show someone that they're ignoring 'em? Isn't it pointless to ignore someone when it's so apparent in your snobbish face that you're avoiding him?

What ever happened to good old white lies and public decency? Aren't they 'in' nowadays?

Just thinking out loud.

Cheska is what?!

Aside from being the wonderful-est person in the whole wide world [as said on the first post], and the Lord of the Conversation [as proven daily]-- she's also the most useful bored cousin who fixes my accounts' layouts! Yay Cheska, find something else better to do. :)

posted.

when there's really nothing much to do (or rather post), you should go and answer surveys like this:

1. What is it about you that people don't really notice?
-- I’m petrified of clowns and mascots.
(no, Jollibee. I don’t think you're cute, let alone funny.)

2. What do people commonly mistake you for?
-- a kid…?

3. Are you insecure?
-- all of us have insecurities.

4. Do you think you're attractive?
-- of course.Ü and irresistible to Sandino. LOL.

5. Do you find it easy to trust people?
-- yes.. I’m planning to change that though.

6. Do you have a really big secret?
-- again, friends’ secrets that I keep. As to whether I have 1, yeah, sure.
(wouldn’t you wanna know?! Haha!)

7. If yes, how many people have you told about it?
-- I’m not even sure if I have 1.

8. How are you when you get mad?
-- I seldom get mad (sad, but true).
But when I do, I just keep quiet.
Sometimes I cry, or I send a nasty email or friendster message (cheska! LOL.)

9. What do you do when you're bored?
-- stalk people, answer surveys, corrupt wishes.

10. Do you enjoy doing nothing?
-- sometimes. But I enjoy ‘working’ more.
(surfing the net, updating my blog, stalking people on friendster, answering lameass surveys..)

11. Are you comfortable in being alone?
-- yes.

12. Do you think watching the sunset or the stars is fun?
-- it depends on the moment, on the person you’re sharing the experience with.
But for the sake of answering this item, yes.

13. Do you like the rain?
-- yes,yes,yes.

14. What can you say about poetry?
-- a bunch of enticing words put together to form an “art”

15. Are you a phone person?
-- not really.

16. Do you smoke weed?
-- nope. I like my brain the way it is.

17. What song best describes how you feel?
-- this item is cheesy.

18. What impossible thing do you want to do right now?
-- turn invisible so I can steal things. Haha.
(but then everything I touch must turn invisible too...)

19. What is missing in your life right this moment?
-- oatmeal raisin cookies.

20. aRe you happy with the way things are going in your lovelife?
-- :-) *sigh*

21. Are you sure?
-- (read above answer)

22. Where were you today?
-- before here, home of course.

23. What did you do today?
-- type, print, staple, organize..stuff.

24. Who were you with today?
-- sandino and zat.

25. What are you planning to do now?
-- doze off. I need some rest.

hampas ng araw, pagdamdam ng gabi

After a long period of journal hiatus, I’m back with an update of what transpired upon my absence. A lot had happened, and I mean A LOT since I’ve ‘gone’. Let me give you brief run-through, starting with my birthday:

September 5, 2 days after my actual birthday (I was absent that particular Monday – ‘birthday’ leave.haha), my office-mates (lead by Zat), surprised me by decorating my cube with pictures, banners and letters.





I spent the whole day doing an ‘Amazing Race’ sort of thing where they had me go through different stations. In each station, letters from my colleagues await. Talk about effort.Ü. It was most of all tiring, but having all those letters and well-wishes for me on my birthday from thoughtful (not to mention creative) friends, I say it was all worth it.Ü

I downloaded YM, even if it’s against company rules. (Screw those rules anyway). A while ago, a friend from Rich YM-ed me..exactly when Kat Flores of the HR department was asking me something. Bummer. She even commented on how Lee Dong Wook looks extra yummy in my display image. I agreed.Ü Was she being polite or is she up to sabotage me tomorrow? Haha…I really don’t know and honestly, I couldn’t care less. It’s nice that I have YM again. I get to chat when there’s nothing to do. (I chat ALL the time, just so you know). I’ll be gone by October anyway.Ü

A sister of a friend died last month while crossing Congressional Avenue. That place, known for its fast speeding cars, cabs and tricycles, is nonetheless very deadly (I met an accident there too, but that’s a whole different story. ;p) I remember that day when I heard of her death. I woke up feeling glum and heavy, not knowing why. I found out about it a little later, when a friend told me of the tragedy. I was startled, and for a moment there, I kind of felt numb. I guess that’s how my body reacts when I’m overwhelmed. When I arrived in the office, I slouched in my chair, covered my face and cried for a whole 10 minutes. My heart was very heavy that whole day. Next month would’ve been her 18th birthday. =(

Marvi will be leaving on the 25th. (Ola, España!) I know, it’s her lifelong dream to go to Europe..and I’m very proud of her..extremely proud even. It’s just that I’m gonna miss her terribly! She’s one of my 7 soul sisters.Ü

I can’t wait for our post-birthday-slash-despedida party: an all-girls night out, no boyfriends (hmmm…), no Romeo Movido! Haha! (that doesn’t mean I don’t love you chocomousse.), booze, food, and of course pure, unadulterated ‘wholesome’ fun. (I AM wholesome). I’m gonna miss you Marvi! Till then, Adios!Ü

I am currently in love with up dharma down’s Pag-agos. At last, a song with lyrics that sound so good, I can taste it:

At sa aking pagkuubli, hampas ng araw pagdamdam ng gabi
Tulog ang iyong mga kamay, di nako makapag antay

Isang umaga muling aahon, at sisikat sa mga panahon
Na tayo pang dalawa, masayang pagsasama

Buong araw ng pag-agos, kailan ang huling unos
Di alam kung tatakbo, kusang lalayo sayo

Isang umaga muli ng pag-iisa, walang mayakap at makasama
Pusong pilit na sinugatan, landas kong karaniwan.
***
Finally, a message to them people who can’t keep their eyes to themselves:
“I know…you may be poor…famished, even. But please, be decent enough to mind your own phone.Ü”

- FIN -

Break Muna.

watch this and marvel at her talent. let's bring-bring...bring your flower head.



http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=leW9nn8ZCAM

leaf ur ofen hand, okei?

FOR SOMEBODY WHO HAS ALWAYS LOVED ME AS A LITTLE BOY: To Bianca on our 1st anniversary

As far as I can remember, I’m fond of daydreaming. Ever since I was a toddler, my mind always drifts off somewhere. I don’t know if it’s ever considered normal to have daydreams as often as I have them…anyway, I still have that odd habit until now. You might say I have a very wild imagination, thanks to the television. I’m not very fond of books (although I read when I’m not lazy which is a very rare occasion). Why read if you can watch them? Wicked TV, made me an addict. I love TV so much I watch even the TV. Guide channel. I curse the day my parents banned me from watching TV on weekdays! Now back to daydreaming. What are daydreams anyway? Is it a desperate attempt to escape from reality?
Maybe it’s also the main reason why I love toys.

I love making Wolverine, Lone Ranger, and Rambo fight against each other in our sofa as a little boy. I feel like crying when I receive a gift that feels soft. Why do people give clothes as gift to kids? Don’t they know kids don’t appreciate them? When I was a little boy, every time I ask my parents to buy me a toy (which is most of the time an action figure by the way), they always answer back: “na-out grow mo na yang mga laruan na yan.” That’s why until now, toys are my frustration.

When I was in kinder, I didn’t like school. I cried on my first day at school. And on my second day. And on my third. I told myself back then that once I finish college, I’m going to stop going to school. Now here I am taking up nursing as a second course. Am I childish? I don’t know. Maybe I am. I hate being a grown up. Growing up means having more problems. What’s my point?

Last June 14 I just turned 21. I don’t feel like I’m 21 and I don’t look like I’m 21. It was just like any other day. I drove my mom to her appointment, and then we ate lunch, got home, did some errands, went to church, ate dinner, and so on and so forth. That night, I couldn’t sleep. As usual I don’t know why. Maybe it was because I was thinking about a lot of things. God, I’m already 21. Some people my age already has a family…and a job. Then, I suddenly remembered that I have a lot of things to be thankful for. I am thankful for having a girlfriend. It was one year ago when I received a phone call just minutes before June 14 ended. So this is how it feels like to have a girlfriend. For me, starting that day, I always felt that somebody is connected to me. It’s like I have a twin somewhere. Argh…I can’t explain it. It’s like I am bonded to somebody; I feel attached anywhere I go. I am so madly in love with my girlfriend.

Last June 14, I was reminiscing of the so many days we have been together. No, our relationship is not perfect. There’s no such thing. I don’t care how many times we argued about not seeing each other, about me not replying immediately to her text or about missing a movie. I just love her. So what does this have to do with daydreams? Well as I told you earlier I couldn’t sleep. So I went outside and sat on our garage. The sky was empty. I was disappointed not to see any stars that night. Then I started thinking of how old I already, I’m already 21. My mind started to drift. Have I done something wrong in the past? Did I make a wrong decision somewhere in my life? Then I had this imagined: God would make me go back to being a 6 year old boy. But, he was going to make my memory intact so I could remake my life over again. Then something struck me. Where would my Bianca be? I thought hey, I could try to contact her, find her phone number or something. But what was I going to say? “Hi it’s me, Batchoy, your future boyfriend! You love me and I love you.” Nope, that won’t work. Maybe I’ll just have to wait until I meet her then. What, like wait for 18 years and court her again?! But then I thought what if something happens and we didn’t meet. Where was I going to find her? Cebu? Davao? That’s when I started to feel a lump on my throat and a tear in my eye. Stupid sentimental boy. It was a daydream. But you know what? It was a reality check for me. I realized I was too busy looking for the mistakes I had done in my life, I couldn’t accept the fact that I am growing up…that I was no longer a boy. I realized have so much to be thankful for. Surprisingly I felt sleepy at last. I got up and went back to bed. I lied down comfortably then suddenly just before I slept I remembered something, I reached for my cellphone and stared at the picture that made me happy since June 14, 2005.

you just gotta love him.~sigh!

fine. i'm guilty. shoot me.

i really really like dennis trillo. how could you not?

Alright...these are definitely not his most compromising pictures but hey...he still looks cute,doesn't he?

gawd...help me.

21 Questions

Can you name 21 people you can think of right off the top of your head? Dont read the questions underneath until you write the names of all 21 people. Ready, Start!

1.bong
2.cheska
3.jenny
4.marvi
5.rach
6.xyla
7.elena
8.sheena
9.romeo
10.jopet
11.mae s.
12.audie
13.francia
14.charisse
15.ode
16.faith
17.gel
18.cherry
19.jonathan
20.rjay
21.manying

THE QUESTIONS:

1. How did you meet 14?>>
sa school.forever seat-mate, co-ojt-er, dancing partner.hay.

2. What would you do if you never met 6?>>
life wouldn't be as pleasant as it is now.:-)

3. What would you do if 20 and 9 dated?>>
*knock on wood* not funny.

4.Did you ever like 5?>>
sobra.mahal ko yan.

5. Would 4 and 12 make a good couple?>>
what? no!

6. Describe 8>>
crazy, sexy, beautiful. ~wink~

7. Do you think 13 is attractive?>>
sobra. :-)

8.Tell me something about 17>>
a true friend in every sense of the word(/s?!)

9. Do you know any of 4's family members?>>
hay.gusto mo pati cousins? ilan?

10. What's 21's favorite color?>>
blue. forever blue. amen.

11. What would you do if 18 confessed he/she likes you?>>
ahahaha! planting ginseng,planting ginseng!

12. what language does 20 speak?>>
filipino, english, bataan-enio?!

13. Who is 9 going out with?>>
yikee! noon si sh-----..nyewewewe! hindi niyo alaaaam!!!

14. What year is 16 in?>>
graduate na kami niyan.

15. When's the last time you talked to 13?>>
tagal na…mga May, before I got a job.

16. What is 2's favorite band?>>
CUESHE! ahahaha!

17. Would you ever date 7?>>
been there, done that.

18. Would you ever date 12? :>>
lunch date,recess date…kahit ano.

19. Is 15 single?>>
of course not! hinihintay ko nalang kasal.

20. What is 19's last name?>>
lau. As in j.lau.

21. Would you ever want to be in a serious relationship with 11?>>
ahahaha! if i could,i definitely would!

22. What school does 3 go to?>>
Miriam.

23. Where does 15 live?>>
Las Pinas. the 'over nyt-an" house. ;-)

24. What's your favorite thing about 10?>>
he knows how to treat women.sweet. :-)

25. Have you seen number 1 naked?>>
si bong?! hahahaha.

(will be) on blog-leave...again.

will be leaving for Cebu for a conference.
hey,hey,hey mga bai! kita-kits after 7 years!

kinikilig ako! :-)

new everything

there are some things that I just can't contain.I hope I don't bore you to death with these.:-)

Yes people...contrary to popular belief, I do have a job. I'm now an official tax payer; part of the working class.Damn.I snagged the job one week after my initial interview.I'm now an Administrative Assistant at Glaxo Smithkline's Performance Effectiveness Resounce Group Department (PERG).Still a casual, but with a great chance of being a regular.October will be the decision month for me so I'm really really determined to do great with this.2 weeks had been absolutely different for me.Waking up at 5:45 every morning was...i mean IS...hell.Riding the MRT daily makes hell such an understatement.Try multiplying the feeling exponentially,now that would somewhat amount to what I feel.Walking,though with promises of burning cellulite in my thighs (which accumulated during my short-lived vacation, by the way),3 blocks from Magallanes station is terrible.That's why I'm forced to stick with my trustee flat-shoes as my daily footwear (and I was so excited to use my pumps.They match all my office-wear,ya know!?) Speaking of daily apparel, corporate clothing as my daily get-up was really a 180 degree turn from my usual jeans and t-shirt get-up.Now that it's been 2 weeks since I started working,I'm afraid it's time, sad to say,for me to "ulit" my blouses.I can't wait for payday.

A lot of changes had occurred,really. New job instantly means new life. I had to mature;grow-up eventhough I don't want to (yet..hehe).But that's life.The cliche sucks but that's true. I hate it that I don't get to see Batchoy that often anymore.Once a week would be an indulgence. I get to talk to him every now and then though,using the company phone of course :-) Oh,and I'm ecstatic that I have my own working cube already: my own computer, own desk, own everything.Next week,I'm gonna start stuffing it with some of my room stuff...just so I could give it a personal touch (naka-ng-shet!).I'm glad that people at PERG are super bait. I never felt out-of-place from the moment I stepped in that Monday morning. I'm so thankful also that they're uber patient with me, you know, being new and stuff.I love that I have good work mates.I love that all of us in PERG are all girls.GIRL POWER TO THE NTH LEVEL ;-)

I had my hair cut to.Just like Angel Aquino's.It's new...and different...but just like my life so far, it's awesome.

Confused with this entry? Read my profile.I love irony. ;-)

come...let's food

let's savor every moment!!!

tryin' to look convincing.

apple pie.bow.

it's the yummiest apple pie i've ever tasted my whole life. it's a bit costy (P 110.00+) pero super sulit kasi masarap ng sobra. it's good for two people pa. super yummy,as in!

1. hindi sobrang tamis, hindi rin matabang---perfect!

2. the pie crust is just right: sweet and flaky.

3. the apples are not soggy too. crunchy and not too acidic.

4. the caramel sauce? shet...namatay nalang ako.

5. may cinnamon sugar pa on top tsaka nuts and one big scoop of vanilla ice cream.

if i got you craving for this piece of heaven, you can get it at gateway, sa food court, sa NYPD DINER. trust me, you'll thank me for it.

ON BLOG LEAVE

from left to right: june, ode, faith, moi, vanjo (sa likod.nyahaha.),charisse, francia, mae elpa, kokx and namron

haaay...gonna miss those smiles. from ear to ear.

cake foundation? check.
uber pink blush-on? check.
bubble-gum lipstick? check.
(and i'm not even referring to myself.nyahaha)

nothing to post really...just wanted to share some (long overdue) pictures

the noise of demacracy

i'm not really into politics. nor am i used to voicing out my political convictions (if there were any). it just so happened that there was no cable last night that i was forced to watch debate with mare and pare (or whatever the title of the show is). the topic was something i found funny: "ano ang mas matimbang? ang karapatan mag protesta o ang pag respeto kay GMA?" i mean, right?! that topic wasn't so hard after all. of course, i choose my liberty and freedom rights over respect of the president. with all due respect, i know we were taught as youngsters to respect the elderly and what not. but man...a cheater? a fake? please. respect is not an absolute idea, it is relative upon the person whether he/she deserves it or not. sure, you may not respect the position, but you should respect the person...not in all cases...no!

let me give you a hypothetical situation: if you were in a graduation ceremony where the guest speaker is Hitler...would you give him his "due" respect? i don't think sooooooo!!! respect is not demanded. it is earned. i repeat, respect is not an absolute idea. now, the opposition says the sanctity of the ceremony should have at least been honored. but this doesn't mean that our rights should take a backseat. that was even the perfect opportunity for them to demonstrate. the president was there, they were there...perfection. protesting does not choose any situation, person or place. it strikes anywhere. it should be exercised anywhere. so if they insist that the sanctity of the ceremony should be preserved, then only role models who are credible and worthy of being respected should be invited to such commencement exercises. according to winnie monsod, the right to protest overrides respect. i agree. someone should tell that gonzales guy to stop the investigation and go to hell. the government exists for the protection of the people's interest. the president is the servant of the people...so:

LISTEN TO THE PEOPLE!!!

FOSTER STUDENT ACTIVISM!

(just thinking out loud...)

it's morphin' time.

hadn't been online for weeks now. damn am i pathetic. it's not that i don't have time or anything.
i'm more of anxious; scared to update myself of what transpired upon my absence.the past two weeks had been hell-ish for me.i never had a good night sleep since "vacation" day.

my body has also been functioning really weird lately. on an average, i sleep only 5-6 hours a day.(blame it on my defective digestive system).i get up in the middle of the night to do some bathroom business, which should normally occur in the morning, after breakfast or before i shower (am i grossing you out already?)

i have this vein at the back of my head that have unusually been swelling for three weeks now. it throbs every now and then too.

my skin is flaky,due to lack of sleep.

my hands and feet are unusually cold, and my hair is drying out.

friday:
woke up at 5:00 am. brother borrowed 100 bucks from me. tried to catch my sleep but to no avail.filed my nails and accidentally scratched my forehead.finished my financial statement at 9:00am.went to school to meet up with my president and auditor. edited minor details. feet got soaked due to rain. found out that i averaged 1.94.planned to file complaint vs. MS. CALACA.
found out at 7:00pm that financial statement was not signed because no receipts were present.wen to bed at 9:00 pm,actually slept at around 2:00am.


saturday:
woke up at 7:00am.had to be in school by ten.printed a 24-page report.got scolded by father for "not contributing to society". passed resceipts at around 11.went home at 12. flat-iron-ed my hair, but got frizzy after an hour. asked permission from bong if i could go to a friend's party at 9:00pm. boyfriend said "no", so i went.got in a fight by 12:00 midnight.played "in the middle" with highschool friends.lost by P25.00.got a cab at 1:30.home by 1:45.fought with boyfriend on the phone for 1 1/2 hours.set alarm at 6:00am.slept at around 3.

sunday:
turned alarm off at 6am.got out of bed at 6:30.woke up with a bitter taste of spoiled beer in my mouth and with hair smelling like a chimney.got my things ready and got out of the door by 8:00am.went straight to bong's place and afterwards, left for remedios resort at 10.swam like there's no tomorrow.got home at 9:00pm.slept at around 2.

monday:
woke up at 8am.went to school at 9.brought additional jacket orders.kids got pissed at me because good god! it's already summer.rained like crazy at around 11am.had a freshman call me fat.shoved him hard and asked him to apologize.jared just laughed at my face (that bastard) .got home at 1pm.

tuesday:
9th month-sary.planned to go out with bong, but got lazy and just had him go over my place.went out to buy a new watch, a pink top, new earrings and shawarma.bought the dvd "just friends" and 2 huge packs of fish crackers.watched movie at the living room.movie was not lame...just boring.watched the simpson's at 6pm.bong got home at 6:30.

wednesday:
zech called. asked me to bring P850.00 for refund.wanted to cancel meeting but zech left already.checked my mail at 12:00nn.found out that it was too late for me to file a complaint already.found out that wowowee was back on air.will be leaving for schoo at around 2.can't wait to go home and bore myself to death.

i need to get a life.(and vitamins too.)

no more english for me.

no more business com.
no more weekly monetary collections from rule-breakers.
no more red tin can full of coins.
no more battle of the sexes.
no more lesser beings.
no more higher beings.
no more "seminars".
no more bangaoil.

pity.

hay.

i just had the sweetest chat with chocomousse today.

recap on things we haven't shared in a while...

catching up on things that needs updating.

things have indeed changed.

but he will always be my chocomousse, and I, his cupcake.

(for romeo movido.)

random words.

ethics.utilitarianism.counselling.cassette tapes.financial statements.receipts.4 thousand pesos.5 thousand pesos.jackets.bong lora.graduation investiture fee.magna carta.melancholy.jessica zafra.yoga and capoeira.big brother.earthquakes and rain.compensation.hate mail.nail lacquer.solitude.catharsis.

damn technology

puchang E-LEAP yan!

wala na nga akong quiz,pati ba naman finals???? bakit kasi hindi nalang i-pen and paper?

tsk, at yang MS. CALACA na yan,where the hell is your work ethics? ang yabang-yabang mo! customer service ka ng UST, tapos ang taray taray mo! tuition ko nagpapakain sa pamilya mo!

how dare you threaten my grade with your arrogance? tapos muntik mo pa ko bagsakan ng fone? come on?!

how the hell can we cheat when we aren't even at the same place? hello? online nga eh!

pag proceed sa number 2 question, walang question! damn!

i took the exam again, test completed na!

i viewed the assessment, cannot be viewed because test is not yet completed!

anlabo men!

bulok na ELEAP! IBASURA!

Survey Galore

what is your name? (must not contain: a, c, g, h, s, j, u, r, n): ---b oe eid oyeece...putangina.

2. what time is it? (you CANNOT use numbers) ---five twenty-six in the afternoon.

3. what school or job do you go to? (you CANNOT use proper nouns):---the only royal pontifical catholic university of this country.

4. how are you feeling right now? (must contain at least 6 letters)---pissed.

5. how old are you? (cannot be in terms of years) ---let's put it like this... if I were a man, debut ko na ngayong taon.

PREFERENCES/FAVORITES:

1. where's the perfect vacation place? (cannot be in the philippines)---Bahamas.

2. favorite musical artist? (must be outdated)---engelbert and humperdink. (o... angal ka pa?)

3. favorite book? (must contain at least 400 pages)---the labor code of the Philippines with comments and cases!

4. favorite junkfood? (must come in at least 3 flavors)---french-fries (ano ka ngayon? May sourcream,cheese and bbq yon!)

5. favorite spice (you must also state at least 3 food/drink items in which the spice is used) ---cinnamon!!!! (apple pie, cinnamon roll, cinnamon coffee!!! Patay ka)

6. favorite country? (you must be able to name the capital and a natural landmark) ---Philippines >>>
Manila; Hinulugang Taktak! (panis!!!!)

7. favorite food? (must be filipino food)---kinilaw na tuna! (Davao rocks!)

8. one of your favorite movies? (you must also state one of the characters of the movie and a memorable line they said)
---harry potter 3 -> Daniel radcliffe -> lumous maxima.

9. state another memorable line from that movie..
---"harry......" (putakte... lupet ko!)

11.favorite holiday? (must be celebrated by all)---labor day.

Fill in the Blanks

Gotten in fight with ur pet: yep. scratches galore.
Been to California : in my dreams.

Been to China: hong kong was not yet china back then.

Been to Canada : nope

Danced naked : hahahaha! Yep! you bet!

Dreamed something really crazy and then it happened the next day: oo! Grabeh... nakakakilabot.

Wished you were the opposite sex : yep... dati... super.

Had imaginary friends? Yep... when I was young.

Do you have a crush on someone? I'm not going to answer STUPID questions.

What book are you reading now : Labor Code of the Philippines

Worst feeling in the world : solitude.

Future son's name : Sandino. lufet!

Do you sleep with a stuffed animal: (define "sleep with"...?) yes. :-)

What's under your bed : shoes, magazines (candy mag), slippers, art materials, siblings, rock stars.

Siblings: teeree.

Location : parent's room.

College plans : ....downloading: 30%...

Piercings/tattoos : 3 piercings. tattoos: none.